7/4/2026 - How to recharge a social battery no glue no borax?HUGEHUGE TANGENT YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

I’m back :p I still doubt anyone’s reading this but honestly I’m happy about that, I think most of my friends are sick of my ranting and overthinking, so anyone who reads this is probably gonna feel the same. (but hey if you can relate to any of this hopefully it brings some comfort knowing you aren’t alone? I know i’d probably feel that way). I’ve had a weird week, mostly good but of course with school ending and what I think has been the most social three days of my life, my social battery is DEADDDD. Ironically I get super tired of talking to people, but the second I’m not keeping myself busy by being social my brain decides it’s a great time so have some huge revelation about myself (AKA ranting about the same problems over and over), for example my little cry today was about me being annoyed that my friends view me as this really innocent person. I find often that my friends will apologise in advance if they make freaky jokes towards me, which I don’t mind at all, It usually just takes me a bit to register what someone’s said, which I think has led to them thinking I’m totally uncomfortable with those sorts of things? I mean, to a point I definitely don’t see myself seriously doing any of the freaky things they joke about, I do get a little cringed out thinking of myself in that way, but I think they sort of interpret it as “oh, poopopoingmypants must not be comfortable, we shouldn’t talk about ANY PHYSICAL TOUCH WHATSOEVER”. I just want a hug sometimes man. A proper one not just a pat on the back 😔 The stuff above has led to a few comments from my friends along the lines of “I just don’t see you in a relationship”. Like. Hello?? What???????? I’m just grossed out by sexual stuff (mostly because I’m underaged, I think that’s fairly normal) not holding hands or kissing?? I dunno, the comments felt super backhanded especially considering the people I’ve heard it from were all in relationships. It felt a bit like they were dangling a piece of candy over my head and saying “look what you can’t have”. Feels just a bit shitty. ALSO I SWEAR I HAVE THE WORST LUCK WHEN IT COMES TO THIS STUFF TOO. When i’ve liked somebody, one of my friends has liked them too (which isn’t too bad, friends tend to have similar taste after all), so I leave it alone and let them shoot their shot since I can’t exactly react to them saying “I like ___” with “Oh shit! Me too!”. Okay actually that’s pretty much all the time, I think the one time I’ve tried to shoot my shot, which was with someone outside of my usual circle, they didn’t understand. I sent them a message asking if they wanted to be my valentine (Yes very original, sue me), and they sent back a picture of a pigeon. Is that a yes or a no?? And then the next time we hung out they said “next date you pay” (said hangout was not specified to be a date), and when I brought it up they said “idk what you’re talking about” AUGHHHHHHSGHSHSHSHHSH WHAT. This was a huge tangent, it’s like 1:30am, I need to sleep. -Poopopoingmypants

24/3/2026 -

i doubt i will update very often but hey!! blog bit? journal? i dont know what to call this. I finally got this to look how i want (ty ribo zone), yay!! I kept freaking myself out with the amount of views the site had after my many many many small changes, since I thought a bunch of people were looking at my site, turns out it was just me looking at the page ;___; I made this site because one of my irls has a neocities, and they were being all secretive about it and i thought to myself "hey why not also make one and be secretive about it", since it might be nice to have somewhere away from my friends to just, dump my brain out where someone might read it and think "yo me too". Except im worried ill put too much of my interests on here and then they'll find it. If you're reading this you have to send me the link to your website. you know who you are. its only fair. (jkjk unless hahah hnggghhhhhhhhhh). i need to get my shit together and decide wether or not i want to capitalise my 'i's or not. fml. ok bai -poopopoingmypants (this name was such a mistake i shouldve just made a new account BuT NOOOOO. i felt stupid trying to come up with a new name for this. I keep getting pregnancy ads now from all the baby name sites I was browsing. ok bye forealsies now.